God is speaking

I want to share what happened two days ago. I was in a bad situation and really really down and right into this situation, God spoke to me. But, step by step...


First of all, I want to explain a little bit about how God speaks.
The Bible tells us so much about how God spoke to people. He showed himself in different form of nature. For example, he appeared as a burning bush and out of that bush, God spoke directly to Moses (Exodus 3).
God also spoke through angels. He send them as messengers to tell people he'd chosen what he wanted them to know. A good example is where the angel comes to tell Mary she will become pregnant and give birth to Jesus, God's beloved son (Luke 1: 26-38).
Something that appears pretty often in the Bible is God speaking through dreams and visions :
1 Kings 3:5 , Genesis 20:3 and more
He speaks through other people, through scripture (the Bible) or through phrases which meet us via internet, newspapers, books or whatever you can read or listen to.

There may be some ways of God's speaking I didn't mention, but I think I listed the most common ways.

Well, like I said at the beginning of this post, I was really really upset Sunday night. I am not gonna say why, because that is not important right now.
What is of importance and what I wanna share is what happened that night, while I was upset and being mad at God because I felt like He was preventing me being happy.

I sat at my desk in front of my computer and had all those thoughts and feelings I just mentioned. All of a sudden, I remembered a song and felt I should listen to it. So, I hit youtube, typed in the song and listened. And while I did words appeared on my screen! Words, telling me exactly what I needed in that situation. I will quote here, what came up my screen within about 20 minutes:

‘Don't get disappointed when God doesn't give you what you want.....

For he knows the best time for you to have it.....’

‘My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.

psalm 62:1’

'call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.' Jeremiah 33:3

'For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29,11'

'God has a reason for allowing things to happen

'we may never understand His wisdom'

'But we simply have to trust His will...'

'We face all challenges'

'beyond all the problems'

'because we believe that the more pain we overcome... the more stronger we become'

'JUST HOLD ON ..........AND BE STRONG.............GOD IS WITH YOU'

'sometimes all we can do is rest on His arms as He takes us through the journey of life.....

With Him we are safe... ‘

Honestly, at the first few words I was speechless.....and then I was annoyed. I really felt like: Thanks God! Right now I just want to be mad at you and not talk to you and just......and then you tell me this?? Just leave me alone, how can I be mad at you if you tell me this???

And then he kept on writing on my screen and telling me what I also posted. I, still, was so annoyed. Now, two days later of thinking about it, I am honestly glad. I wanted to turn away from God in that moment, I just wanted him to leave me alone, I wanted to ignore him, keep him away from my life. But God came right into this Situation and knocked on my door, the door of my heart. He wanted me to listen to him, wanted me to actually see and realize that I don't need to understand everything and question everything, but even in hard times, trust him and believe it is for my good.

I think if he hadn't talked to me in that moment, I would still be mad at him and turn my back to him. He knew it and so, he talked to me right away, told me what I needed to hear. I am so thank ful for his speaking to me.

A friend I was talking to while God was talking to me said: ' He is going to use you for great things'

me: '?' He: 'Why does he keep knocking on your heart if he doesn't want to use you'

I think he is right. Why does God do this, if he doesn't want to use me? Why in the world would he so go after me all the time (because this was not the first time he did this) and grab my hand when I want to turn away from him??

I am excited what he is going to do. I am looking forward to it, although I don't know what it will be. But if it comes from God, it is going to be great, not easy, but great. =)